There’s something I must admit, is that I seriously act like a kid. I cried just because I don’t wanna go to school. Thank God, I got Kev besides me. When I compare with his timetable, I felt better. His timetable was 100 times worser than mine. Oh well, there’s nothing I can complain then!
This semester will gonna be tougher than last semester I can tell. Everything is about writing, not so sure bout the law subject. I feel so terrible when I saw the unit outline of my PR subject. Using two hours to draft out press releases and so on in the lab. Shit. How am I suppose to write in such a short period!! Moreoever, I can’t type using my laptop, I must use that idiot keyboard in the lab. Oh my God. That’s seriously torturing me. I can’t imagine what grade will I get for those works at the end of the semester. Arghhh.
Timetable sucks. When Kev having his break, I’m having my class. The most terrible part is that we don’t even have time to pass the car key to another. For example, tomorrow. I’ve totally no idea how am I suppose to get the key from him. His class starts at 9am till 11am, 2 hours break, starts again at 1pm till 8pm. While my class will starts at 11am till 1pm and starts again at 5pm till 7pm. Damn. The morning class is still fine for me cause what I need to do is fetch him to school in the morning, give him the key and starts my class. It’s lucky that our class are near to each others. Thus, it won’t be a matter for passing the keys. Now, the 1pm parts that struggled me. This is due to the long distance between our class venues. His class will be on the east side and mine will be on the west side. I finally came out with 2 sucks options. First, he gave me the key, and late for his class. Second, I’ll go to his classroom, ask him to come out for a while to pass me the keys. Sigh. I wonder, is it possible to duplicate the car keys? Fuhhh!
Just finished my lunch. Didn’t manage to eat anything during lunch break cause I accompanied my friend to buy the super glue, her shoes torn off. I was keep laughing at her cause she was wearing it to class. I just don’t understand, why she doesn’t wear another pair instead of wearing it since it’s half torn. Anyway, there’s nothing much I can eat in this house. The tap was torn off and there’s no other source to get clean water as the filter goes with the tap in the kitchen. Sigh. I wonder when will my house mate willing to find a repairman to fix it. I can’t survive without water. I can’t cook at all. Even the drinking water, I bought it from the supermarket. Geez. Everyday RM7, a month will be RM210. What if he does not fix it this semester? I assume this semester lasts for 6 months. RM210 multiply by 6.. RM1,260!! It costs me RM630 after dividing it with Kev!! Just for drinking purpose, not to mention my lunch costs and so on. F*ck.
As I mentioned in my last post, I never buy the right thing. My mattress was out of shape and thus, I went to buy a new one few days ago. Not a lousy brand I can tell, and of course, not a poor quality as well. For sure, I’ve learned my lesson during my previous purchase of my mattress. Guess what? It’s worser than before. I can hardly go to bed every night. Maybe it’s the pillow which causes my insomnia. But what can I do? I’ve bought 2 pillows previously. Sigh. I knew that I’m a freaking idiot in purchasing. And yet, I wished to buy a blender. Kev doesn’t seems to agree with it. I understand and I knew that I won’t use it as often as I thought. Honestly, there’s a lot of things I bought here but yet it’s now dusted in the cupboard. I even bought a non-stick pan, cause I cooked quite often last semester. However, I don’t think I’ll cook that often due to the idiot timetable. Money keep wasting and I feel more guilty. Not to mention my textbooks lying on the shelf, saying ‘hi’ to the dust everyday. Geez. Guess I gotta stop calculating my unnecessary expenses. Else, I won’t be able to forgive myself.
Another hour and I’ll be fetching Kev back home. I can’t wait for him to get home. He must be exhausted. His class are much more packed than mine. Poor him. He told me that luckily I didn’t choose his course. However, honestly, I prefer taking the same course with him though it’s much more tougher and stressed than my current majors. At least, I have more time to be with him, able to share what he’s experiencing. I wanna let him know that, he’ll never be alone and I’m always willing to be here to share and stay with him. Oh well, it’s always easy to say. I might be crying at the end of the day if I’d chosen his course.
I miss Vix. She’s so cool nowadays. I can rarely talk to her. Sometimes, I even feel that she hates talking to me. There’s not much topics left between us. I’ve totally no idea what she’s struggling with. Oh, maybe her homework and the ex-files. Undeniable, I’m not a good advisor. She felt worser after talking to me. Trust me, I knew it. That makes me feel worser, I’m always seeking help from her but she needs someone, I’m always the not helpful one. That’s what she used before to describe me and yet, I admit.
I’m sorry, gal. I seriously tried my very best to cheer you up. I know it doesn’t helps at all. Or maybe say it this way, I’ve no idea what struggled you that serious. In KK, you cried because it’s hard for you to meet him. I understand, I know. Now, you’re so close to him. You’re able to meet him once he’s out from camp, you complaint because you only have few hours with him. Seriously, don’t you think it’s better than before? On the other hand, the ex-files that bothers you the most. I understand, I know. From the day you knew him, you knew that he got exes as well. You decided to be with him and you said you won’t care about his past. I admit, sometimes I’ll feel bad as well when it comes to Kev’s exes. But still, I must accept the fact that happened between both of them. Please, don’t let it bother you anymore. Though you have some similarities with them, so what? I’ve some similarities with Kev’s exes as well. She even looks prettier than me! Trust him, gal. When he choosed you, it means that he loves you. Those similarities you mentioned, doesn’t really sounds logic because a lot of girls had such similarities as well. You’re unique! Trust God’s creativity, He never creates a same person in this Earth. Twins does have differences as well. Let go, girl. Give yourself a chance to have a better life. In Singapore, you’re able to start everything from beginning. The most important part is, you have your own privacy now. Remember, you always have a choice, the you are always the decision maker. Whether to live happier or not, it depends on yourself. Don’t and never underestimate yourself.
Enough for now then, it’s almost time to fetch Kev. Muackz, I love you, girl. Hope to hear from you soon. Miss you!!
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trishby